Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Duty on Christmas Day

Duty on Christmas Day
Gregory B. Talley
Duty on Christmas Day is generally slow in a small community.  Probably the best things about having to work on that holiday was that if you had the day shift you could go home at two-thirty in the afternoon and still have a good part of the day to spend with your family.  Those of us who had swing shift could be with our families in the morning and watch the kids discover the magic of Christmas in the early hours of the day.  I was a swing-shifter.  I was also the watch commander.
The other good thing about working Christmas was getting paid double-time and-a-half for the holiday.
Unlike Thanksgiving, people don’t watch to see you coming down their street so they can bring you turkey sandwiches and pecan pie.  Instead, they bring boxes of candy or homemade cookies and brownies to the police station for a week or two before Christmas.  You don’t eat things from people you don’t know.
Christmas is pretty quiet.  And slow.  It is slow enough that we let people go home for an hour to eat dinner with their families, but not all at the same time.  That Christmas was that way.
I had served a three-year stint as a patrol officer then another three years as a detective.  Without a doubt detective work gives a police officer a great deal of freedom; the kind that breaks one free of strict work hours and district assignments.  With the freedom comes a great deal of responsibility and long hours on the job, many of which do not come with any sort of compensation.  After three years as a detective I was ready to move back to being on patrol.
I was the newest sergeant on the department.  New sergeants were often assigned to swing shift.  It was a tough shift on our department.  There were always traffic accidents to work during the evening rush hour.  Runaways were generally reported missing when they didn’t come home from school.  There was always a steady flow of petty crimes and felonies to keep you busy.  Weekend parties in the summer typically began during the hours of swing shift and they were always good for drug and alcohol violations.  And, in the winter you could count on a couple of house fires to keep you occupied in the evening.  I loved swing shift.
Death.  Death is a fact of life in law enforcement.  Deaths from natural causes were generally reported on day shift when one spouse woke up and the other didn’t. It seems like most deaths from natural causes took place in bed or on the toilet.  The ones on the toilet are the tough ones to work.  You kind of hate to invade a person’s personal space.  When they remain in the upright and locked position they aren’t too difficult to deal with, but there are a fair number of folks who just roll off the pot and onto the floor.  They often end up wedged between the toilet and something else—generally the bathtub.  Think rigor mortis.
Accidental deaths could happen at any time of the day but seemed to occur most frequently during swing shift.  You tend to think of accidental deaths with traffic accidents, and you would be onto something there except not all accidents take place on the road.  Mary lived alone.  A neighbor was concerned because Mary wasn’t answering her phone but the neighbor could clearly see lights on in the house.  We walked into her house and there she was—face down in her mashed potatoes.  Everybody except me assumed that she had a heart attack while eating dinner.  I saw the bottle of wine on the dinner table and predicted the autopsy would show that she choked to death.  I went to the autopsy and watched as the medical examiner pulled the green bean from her throat.  She choked to death.  The medical examiner called it an accidental death.
Suicides happen just about any time of the day.  I’ll never forget the woman who tried to commit suicide by slitting her wrists.  She didn’t cut deep enough and she didn’t slice in the right direction.  She obviously didn’t read the instruction manual.  Since she couldn’t bleed out she tried to drown herself.  She filled her bathtub with water and forced her head under water.  That didn’t work either as she would hold her breath as long as she could then come up gasping for air.  So, she stripped down to nothing, slit her wrists again and ran outside and around her house in the dead of winter hoping to either freeze to death or bleed to death.  The neighbors saw a “streaker” and called the police.
Then there was the guy who shot up with insecticide.  That didn’t work either, but it gave him really bad breath.  He ended up grabbing a shovel and swinging it at the police.  He was hoping for the suicide-by-cop routine.  I showed up and told him to put the shovel down and to come with me for a ride.  He dropped the shovel and cried like a baby.  A few years later he got his wish.  He broke into his ex-girlfriend’s house after she told him to go away or she would shoot him.  He persisted and broke into her house.  True to her word, she shot him.  Dead.  We didn’t charge her.  We had every reason to believe he wasn’t there to pay her a social visit.
There was something that I found in common with nearly all the suicides I worked.  They were lonely.  Often they were afraid of something in the future, like a terminal illness or loss of employment or a spouse or exposure to something humiliating.  But they were very lonely people; sometimes hurt by a single significant person, and then they were even lonelier.  So many of them had nobody else to connect to.
***
That Christmas had been like those of the past.  Quiet.  No turkey sandwiches or pecan pies from people coming out to meet you in the street.  Just left over candy and cleared cookies.  Everybody got to go home for dinner with their families.  It had turned out to be just another typical Christmas.
Ten twenty in the evening slowly made its way around the clock.  I had earlier checked what meager paperwork there was to approve for the day.  Nothing was going to happen for the remainder of the shift, so I made one last drive through town and was now backing into my parking place outside the police station.  You always back in to your space so if you need to leave again in a hurry you won’t have to look over your shoulder and carefully back up and pull out of the department’s parking lot.  The risk of collision with another backing police car is too great.
***
Randy was new on the department.  He and his wife and children moved in next door.  Their children and our youngest children were about the same ages so it was natural that the two families almost became one.  Just as our kids all played together, he and his wife and my wife and I would often get together to visit and play table games.  Randy was still young and though he had military police experience, he had quite a bit to learn about civilian policing.  He was pretty impetuous.  I had to ride herd on him a little, but he was good.  He would eventually be a very good cop.
***
Just as I was ready to put my car into park and gather my things to go home the dispatcher broadcast “Shots Fired!” and gave an address on El Viento Street.  It was on a cul-de-sac.  Under normal circumstances the drive would take about 15 minutes.  These were not normal circumstances.
“One man down!” cried the dispatcher.
I was already a quarter of the way there when she made that report.  It was very dark outside and there was no traffic.  Deer were always a concern, but they would simply have to get out of the way.  The 35 m.p.h. speed limit meant nothing at 75 m.p.h. with red and blue lights cutting into the cold night.  I turned off Trinity Drive onto Diamond Drive.
Trinity Drive, unlike its namesake, was not a dead end drive.  This drive was named after The Trinity, as in the Trinity Site where atomic weapons were tested during World War II.  Still, a fair number of people had gone to meet the Trinity on this drive.  How ironic.
The tires squealed in agony as I rounded the intersection of Diamond and Trinity.  I could see red and blue lights in my rearview mirror closing in on me as I once again sped up to meet the demand of gunfire.
***
Jared and Elaine* had lived on El Viento most of their married lives.  They had raised their children there and now there were grandchildren.  Jared had a good job in the company town and Elaine worked at the post office.  Elaine spent more time at the post office than working at the post office and she began to find more comfort with Craig than she found with Jared.  Divorce papers had already been filed.  The Department of Energy would later want Jared’s blue “Q-Clearance” security badge.
***
The dispatcher reported more gunfire at the residence on El Viento.  As I sped up even more I looked to my left to see Randy passing me.  I was doing 80; he had to be doing 90.  You don’t do anybody any good if you don’t get there.
“Another man down!”
The turn onto Barranca Mesa from Diamond Drive is tricky under normal conditions and at the posted safe speed.  I’ve seen my fair share of cars that went through the guard rail or slapped into another car or lose complete control and end up in the ditch on the opposite side of the road at that intersection.  Randy left a cloud of dust for me to drive through when I hit the intersection.  Please God, don’t let there anybody be walking across the street.  I had practiced that intersection for occasions just like this.  Once again my tires painfully protested as I rounded the second sharp turn of the evening—two more and I would be there.
***
Jared was now living in an apartment on the opposite end of town.  He had spent Christmas day with Jack Daniels.  The two of them had become good friends over the previous months.  Jack Daniels had done most of the talking through the day.  Jared sipped.  And listened.  There he was in a little apartment all alone while another man was with his wife in his home probably sitting in his rocking chair sharing Christmas with his family.  Jack Daniels was now the only one talking while Jared pondered.  “You know what to do,” Jack whispered to Jared.
***
People were standing in the street on the cul-de-sac and in the yard outside the home.  Dodging them was only another obstacle as Randy and I screamed to a stop outside the home.  The garage door was open and the light in the garage was on.  We ran with guns drawn and looking for cover as we made our way to the house.  The door leading from the garage into the kitchen was standing open.  Randy went low and covered me as I went high.  No immediate sign of threat.
***
Jared left Jack Daniels in charge, wrote a note, grabbed a jacket and his Remington 870 12-guage shotgun and drove to his house to take care of business.  How could he have made it there without being detected by any one of the four of us on duty?  At that hour of the night on Christmas there just is no traffic to be found on the streets of this national laboratory town.
He walked in through the open garage door then quietly opened the kitchen door.  From that vantage point he could easily see Elaine sitting on Craig’s lap in his rocking chair.  There must have been quite a bit of noise in the house as Jared was able to walk through the kitchen and up behind Craig and Elaine without being detected.
***
With weapons still drawn Randy and I slipped into the kitchen and made our way to the crime scene.  Somewhere in the house a baby was crying.  A woman’s figure was on her knees and sitting back on her heels.  She was covered with blood and little pieces of something grey all over her; her bloodied hands covered her face.  There was gut-wrenching, soulful sobbing as her body uncontrollably convulsed.  The acrid odor left behind from gunfire remained in the air.
***
The last thing Craig had felt was the cold blue steel of the business end of the shotgun.  There was nothing left to see where the shotgun had touched him below his left ear.  His hands remained on the arms of the rocking chair.  His torso was soaked in red as a sudden gush of blood rushed up to where a head had once been.  There just wasn’t anything there.
Jared had turned the shotgun to Elaine and cranked another round into the chamber.  She dropped to her knees and pleaded for the sake of their children and grandchildren that he not kill her.
***
In the next two seconds we scanned the room to find Jared prone on the floor in a pool of blood with the shotgun not far from him.  Like Craig, there was no evidence of a head to be found—only blood, pieces of scalp and hair, skull fragments, and bits and pieces of grey matter.  Jared had placed the shotgun far back under his own chin and spared Elaine and the children and the grandchildren.
Elaine was unhurt.  We left her in the care of a neighbor.  The family dog, a beagle, bit into a brain lobe laying on the floor and began to drag it over the bloody carpet.  A quick thump on the side of the head and she dropped it cold and ran for the door.  Another partial lobe began to slide down the wall.  Randy excused himself and stepped outside and made friends with a bush.  The baby and her mother were safe in a room near the front of the house.  I grabbed a blanket and moved mother and baby out the front door and away from what I relive every Christmas.
The next six hours involved diagrams and color photographs and the medical examiner and statements and a visit to Jared’s apartment.  Jack Daniels stood sentry over the note that Jared scrawled out explaining that he could not stand the thought of another man in his house with his wife.  Randy seized the blue Top Secret security badge that leaned against the sentry. 
***
            Randy got an Atari video game for Christmas.  We spent the first half hour silently taking shots at each other as we mastered the game of Tanks.  His wife later told us that she knew we were O.K. when she heard us laughing.  We played until the beginning of day shift.


*Not their real names.

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day

(Note: I gave this address in 2001 on Christmas Sunday and post it here.)

I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day
Binghamton Ward
December 23, 2001
            “I heard the bells on Christmas day their old familiar carols play, and wild and sweet the words repeat of peace on earth, good will to men” (Henry Wadsworth Longfellow).
            It seems that it wasn’t that long ago that we celebrated the birth of the Savior.  I remember as a child that the time between each Christmas seemed so long.  Of course, summer vacation went by much too fast, but the school year seemed to drag on and on forever.  There were other holidays throughout the year and of course, you just can’t forget your birthday.  Birthdays were like your very own private holiday.  But all the  other holidays and breaks and vacations paled in comparison to Christmas.  There is something magical about Christmas, especially for children.  Initially, it was the tree and the gifts.  As I got older it was decorating the tree and eating chocolate or peanut butter fudge and drinking a concoction of hot apple cider and orange juice or lemon-lime soda with scoops of lime sherbet in it.  I remember the first night somebody came to our home and sang Christmas carols outside our front door.  I remember the first time I saw Mother cry at Christmas.  I remember how she told the story of “The Other Wise Man” by Van Dyke and how I finally came to realize that there was more to Christmas than giving and getting gifts and eating and eating and eating.  I came to understand that there is a reason for the special magic of Christmas.
            “I thought how, as the day had come, the belfries of all Christendom had rolled along the unbroken song of peace on earth, good will to men.”
            I grew up in a time we call “The Sixties”.  Some of you grew up with me.  No, we didn’t live on the same block or go to the same school, but you know what I mean.  Some of you just missed the Sixties, for which you should be grateful.  Some of you are parents of those who grew up then.  Others of you are children and grandchildren of those of us who grew up then.  Our parents grew up at a time when a great evil was threatening the world.  A war was waging “over there” but its influence was felt everywhere.  I suppose that it was inevitable, but the sleeping giant was awakened and America once again was thrust into world war.  The men and women who responded to Pearl Harbor became part of that Greatest Generation.  And, when they finished their task they returned to build what arguably is the Greatest Nation.
            We’ve been at peace for so many years.  Even when we’ve been at war during the last half century, we’ve been at peace.  No North Korea, Vietnam, nor Persian Gulf would assail our shores.  We would not allow Cuba to be a staging arena for an attack on this great soil.  Whatever the costs to keep this the land of the free and the home of the brave, we have been willing to pay it—at least so it seemed.
            I can’t quite put my finger on it.  I’m not certain when it began.  I can identify events and point to indicators, but something went wrong along the way.  People began to forget the relationship between responsibility and agency.  They got separated somewhere along the way.  Agency, it seemed was for free and there was no accountability, no responsibility.  The hue and cry was “do your own thing” which has an eerie likeness to “eat, drink, and be merry for tomorrow we die”.  Like so many generations before us who have inherited this land and had forgotten God, we have been on a collision course with destruction.  We have become a wicked generation.  Much of television is not fit for viewing.  The Internet is infected with viruses and pornography.  Popular music promotes infidelity and promiscuity.  Chemicals pollute our environment and many of our nations’ minds.  Road rage is only a symptom of a greater disregard for decency and humanity.  For many years our crime rates have increased, and though there has been a recent downturn in crime overall, gang violence, school violence, and terrorism have all increased. 
            For so many years we thought we were safe since no foreign power had attacked our soil.  While we were busy fighting Communism and tearing down the wall in the East, we failed to fight the author of Communism and let the wall of righteousness crumble in our own backyards. 
            “And in despair I hung my head, there is no peace on earth I said.  For hate is strong and mocks the song of peace on earth, good will to men.”
            Then “Nine-eleven” happened.  It has been as though the sleeping giant once again was awakened.  Out of that great tragedy we have seen acts of heroism, kindness, and love.  Acts of humanity and decency seem to happen in the most unlikely of places.  I have found people standing in long lines talking to each other, not grumbling about the long lines or even talking about nine-eleven, but simply talking and being friendly.  People have engaged in little acts of heroism such as holding doors open for others, helping others with large packages, and saying please and thank you.  There have been moments of silence and days of prayer.  People watch the news and cry.  Flags seem to be growing like tulips in the spring.  Words of solace are being spoken both by political and religious leaders.  For a while anyway, it seems as though our nation is making its way back to God.
            “Then pealed the bells more loud and deep: God is not dead, nor doth he sleep.  The wrong shall fail, the right prevail, with peace on earth, good will to men.”
            I don’t know about you, but this has been an especially difficult Christmas season for me.  Each time I have thought of what to give or do for somebody, images of crashing airplanes creep into my mind.  Funerals for the victims and fallen heroes replay in my mind.  I remember some of the personal stories that have come from this great tragedy.  But, as much as anything, I find myself reflecting a little bit more, a little bit longer.  I don’t know about you, but I find myself getting emotional over little things now.  I’m a bit embarrassed to admit it publicly, but I shed a tear the other day while listening to “Snoopy’s Christmas”.  You know the song.  Snoopy and the Red Barron are engaged in aerial combat and the Red Barron forces Snoopy to land and the Red Barron proposes a toast of good will to his opponent.  One could probably assume that I am going through a bit of post-traumatic stress disorder.  If I am, then I am in good company.  But I think that it is something else.  Traditionally, we start the Christmas season the day after Thanksgiving, but I think the Christmas season began this year on September Eleven.  The slump the retail industry has experienced this Christmas season has less to do with the economy and more to do with people caring about what is important.
            Then it came to me at night in a dream.  The occasion was the loss of the 116 pages of manuscript from the Book of Mormon.  The Lord spoke these words to the Prophet.  “The works, and the designs, and the purposes of God cannot be frustrated, neither can they come to naught.  For God doth not walk in crooked paths, neither doth he turn to the right hand nor to the left, neither doth he vary from that which he hath said, therefore his paths are straight, and his course is one eternal round.  Remember, remember that it is not the work of God that is frustrated, but the work of men; For although a man may have many revelations, and have power to do many mighty works, yet if he boasts in his own strength, and sets at naught the counsels of God, and follows after the dictates of his own will and carnal desires, he must fall and incur the vengeance of a just God upon him (D & C 3: 1-4).
            I have been on an emotional roller coaster since September Eleven.  At one moment I have been angry and unforgiving because my sense of security has been violated.  The next moment I am warmed by the goodness that has come from so many people during our national hour of need.  What I have needed—what we all have needed is something that we have had with us all along: the healing power of the Savior.
            We have all suffered the consequences of September Eleven.  I believe each of us has our own personal September Eleven though.  There are those who sit here today angry at a friend because of an unkindness spoken or upset with an employer because of an unjust action.  Some of you are sitting here today, brooding still over decisions that were made at the expense of your personal feelings.  There are marriages crumbling from neglect or because horrible things have been said or done.  Others have lost confidence in the abilities of associates because promises were not kept.  Consequently, you have closed doors.  You refuse to be hurt again and again.  And in doing so, you have closed the doors to the healing power of the Savior.
            I return to my dream.  “Who hath believed our report?  And to whom is the arm of the Lord revealed?  For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and we shall see him, there is not beauty that we should desire him.  He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.  Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.  But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.  All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.  He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.  He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation?  for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.  And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth” (Isaiah 53:  1-9).
            On this day during this Christmas season I offer to you in all humility two acts that you must do to find peace from your own September Eleven.  One, you must forgive those who have offended.  Two, turn your sorrows and your griefs over to the Lord.  There is no other way.
            “Till ringing, singing, on its way, the world revolved from night to day, a voice, a chime, a chant sublime, of peace on earth, good will to men!”


© Copyright 2002 Gregory B. Talley